never/ever wrote:What a lovely shrine. The ducks give it such a friendly atmosphere.
Wishing your family all the best and strength throughout the next weeks...I sort of got caught myself all of a sudden missing my family a lot, reminiscing throughout Christmases past and the idea of never feeling the same happiness again....
wishing you and yers the same.
ahhhhh, maarts. it's such a complicated mix. you already know. the sadness, loss. the happiness of memories and being lucky enough to have em in the first place, those wunnerful people in our lives. i'm not sure i ever really have one without the other... although on any given day, i'll lean one way or the other. during christmas, i always try my best to focus on the positive, becuz it really does come down to the spirit of the thing, of life. i believe it. and i have people around me who need to keep their heart set on that as much as i do.
but just tween you and me? no, it's never easy, and this time of year in particular can pull up every emotion there is. (cut yerself lotsa slack, my friend.) there are times, if i'm at my most raw or stressed or vulnerable, when just seein a commercial with a lil boy and a lil girl opening their presents with delight on christmas morning can hit me like a train, those memories of mine. howeverrrrr, when i visit the family crypt, honestly, the overriding feeling for me is love, sweetness, pride. all the stuff there, from people who get all that with their duckies and their seashells and their messages and their carved thingies. i was gonna ramble on at length about how i think maybe people from new orleans have a different kinda relationship with cemeteries and crypts, with the whole notion of "alive" or "dead" or "here" or "gone". i suddenly realize that it's too hard to explain, though, mwhaha. not without sounding stark-raving, that is.
some day... one day... we will get plastered together and telllll stories. ya. we will lean on each other. until that day, consider yerself tightly hugggged and sweetly ::smacked:: merry christmas and happy new year, from the heart.